two roads

:: Tuesday, September 21, 2010 :: So Upset I Went For A Run

As I posted on Facebook: "I was so upset when I got home today that I actually went out for a run and then published this post. For those who know me well, you know how upset I must have been to go exercise and to post here. -_-"

Last year, the trials and tribulations were different, and this year has definitely been more positive than negative and loads more positive than last year, but frustrations never cease. I guess there's always something to complain about. If there is nothing big (or as big), then you find (or notice) the small.

I am actually not even sure if this was really an issue last year because I don't recall it being an issue though I am sure it came up. This feeling just started compounding since last Tuesday or Wednesday and has not left since. It has made for a pretty bad end of last week, entire weekend, and start of this week.

I am horrible with confrontation but things don't get better if you don't do anything about it. I remember an episode of House where a patient said, "Time changes everything," and House replied, "That's what people say, it's not true. Doing things changes things. Not doing things leaves things exactly as they were."

The thing is, I am at work around 12 hours a day, so I can confront the issue and try to get things better or I can suck it up, as I usually do, and do the passive-aggressive thing. The latter doesn't work because then I bottle things up inside and then leave in a huff, like I did at the end of today.

Here's hoping I find some guts.

That is all.

:: posted by diana.9:08 PM :: (0) comments ::

two roads diverged in a wood, and i--
i took the one less traveled by,
and that has made all the difference.